Hello all! I’ve never been good at keeping this blog up to date in any shape or form and I always begin each post about just that fact. I can’t possibly believe myself when I say, “I can get better! I’ll change!”. So I won’t. Is what it is…
But anyways, I’m writing this today because I felt like rambling a bit about creativity and the act of expressing oneself.
I have always expressed myself through creative means throughout my whole life. Whether it was drawing or making models as a kid, or writing music or taking pictures nowadays, I have found some way to manifest the inner workings of my creative self. I once had aspirations to somehow make a living doing one, some or all of these things, but I’ve since discovered that’s rather difficult. I simply don’t have the passion required to overcome the obstacles I face in trying accomplish any amount of success at whatever it is I would try to do. On top of that, I lack direction; an outlet to focus on.
I’ve continually found I’m unable to satisfy my creative impulses with just one form of expression. I have to bounce between writing, or designing, or creating music, etc… This just aides in my unfocused approach to being creative. And yes, it’s an approach. There’s always a conscious decision as to how I’m to “get it out”, so to speak.
Recently, I’ve become hopelessly enamoured with Instagram, a (currently) iPhone-only photo sharing app. Not only is it a great way to share photos and get immediate feedback, but it can also be a very positive force on one’s life. There are some amazing people that use Instagram who always have something more to share than just photos. There are stories of turmoil, perseverance, triumph and enlightenment, almost all of which are met with words of empathy, encouragement and advice.
It’s truly something to see how good people can actually be. This, to a generally cynical fella such as myself, can be incredibly influential on one’s worldview. And though I know having me on my bloody iPhone all the time is a stress on my relationship with my fiancé, Kim, I feel I can take something positive from this (while working on developing some personal restraint).
As far as expressing myself goes, Instagram has encouraged me to explore photography more seriously as a creative outlet for myself. I feel I’ve opened myself up a little to share my photos in a way that might actually encourage my growth as an artist, where previously, as is seen with my music, I released a couple albums, got discouraged and more or less quit sharing.
I still write music. I even still share what I’m confident in. But at even the slightest bit of negative feedback, my passion is smothered and I’m back to square one. I’ve lost the ability to create without the fear of what others are going to think; I’m not longer writing music for me.
With photography (or iPhoneography as I believe it more accurately describes what it is I’m doing), I feel I’ve done a better job at remaining true to my creative self while still keeping the desire to grow and change. The relatively little time to take, edit and post a photo versus the time it takes to write, produce and share an entire song has helped expedite the process a smidgen. It’s helped build a more positive, creative being in me.
If I can take the passion I’ve developed for photography and keep true to my creative desires, I might just be able to express myself freely, at any time, in whatever way I deem fit.
Now wouldn’t that be lovely?